However, indicatively analyzing..

It’s been some time since I updated my blog save the random post and a movie review, the latter being more uncharacteristic of me than the former. The reason is that I have been both petrified and repulsed at the same time by the thought of writing anything. Oh, well, to cut a long story short.. on second thoughts, you may have the (not so) long story to start with.

For the past two months, I have had to write loads and loads and loads. And, have had to re - write most of them too. For instance,
“But, ­__ shows that __” has been modified to “However, __ indicates that __”
“Assists in containing” has become “Facilitates in optimizing”
“__ might look at __” has transformed in to “__ may consider __”
Did you notice something here? The first example I have used has ‘modified’ as the joiner, the second one has ‘become’ and the third one has ‘transformed’ totally.
This is something else I had to inculcate in me to improve the quality of my work.
If the 1st sentence is “__ indicates that __”,
the 3rd sentence becomes “__ provides a snapshot of __”,
the 5th sentence becomes “__ depicts the __” etc.

I have had some expertise in formal writing, having been quite a ‘Globe Goddess’ both in college and at campus. My exam papers have carried pages and pages of writing, my project reports have been longer than anyone else’s. But, the past two months have been the most trying in my “write-life”. It has made me so paranoid that I do not use but and might and show anymore. I have acquired an OCD to use the formally correct, politically right words. And, it has hampered my thinking process and writing skills very badly.

I have been worried that the next time I blog, I will sound more like publishing a report than writing just for the heck of it. Incidentally, even my last published writing was not so cautiously executed. It did have ‘but’ instead of ‘however’ in a lot of places.

On second thoughts, all this writing has done me good I guess. If you notice my previous post, it is ‘marginally’ well structured and well thought out (relative to my other posts) – quite atypical of me.

On third thoughts, it somehow feels too unreal to write that way, where everything is in place and written the way it should be, as if my eyes are all set on winning the Pulitzer Prize. Ok, that was a BIT of dramatization, but I guess you are getting the point. There are certain things I do because I have to do them, out of a sense of duty, like writing reports, making presentations, attending parties (rarely) so as not to project myself as a social un-animal and so on. And, there are certain other things I do because I love doing them, like bathroom singing, playing Veena, hanging out with friends, blogging and tinkering.

Now, if I spend time with friends because of a sense of duty towards the whole concept of hanging out, it kills the joy and the beauty of it. Similarly, if I blog using semantically and syntactically right sounding words and phrases, it would kill my individuality and originality.
Not for me the ‘however, indicatively analyzing’ style, at least when blogging. And, I hope that there is clear work life balance on this respect at least and my official writing skills never spill over in to my personal writing.

Like how a friend used to sign off any post on Arbit, I hope I am arbit enough, always!