Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Monotony, a world order

Every evening I look out of my balcony at the creamish-white moon on the backdrop of a deep blue sky. It is surreal; for an instance, life seems almost perfect.

Then I hear a drone in the kitchen. I snap out, as if from a trance. What I thought was the moon is actually a tube-light from a top floor apartment. Reality comes back into focus, complete with concrete walls and high rises, routine schedules and to-do lists.

Over the years, I have learnt that life is just like that illusory moonlight out there, full of quixotic moments and banal realities.

There are those flashes of pure bliss, those seconds when I feel on top of the world. Like when a kind old lady in a car offers to drop me at the taxi stand ‘cos it is pouring like mad, when people I have long lost contact with ping me on GTalk to say that my latest post struck a chord with them, when a group of friends decide to surprise me with a birthday gift I would never have been able to imagine, when my many-day yearning to catch
Haji Ali at sunrise is finally fulfilled.

The here and the now, the quintessential elements of my existence just then make me ask, “What if time was to freeze at those moments? What if I could stay with those moments eternally?”

However, the mundane takes over the fantastic, for that is the world order. There are rains and flooded roads. There are days of unexplainable and self-inflicted loneliness, days of never-ending work and piled up responsibilities. There are choice-less times with only one way to take, the tried and tested one way.

Sometimes, I wonder whether it is too much to ask for more than my fair share of stay in seventh heaven, whether moments of serendipity could be stretched into hours, perhaps days, perhaps years.
But, then, it would not be serendipity any more. That is why fate doles it out in small doses, like single shots of chocolate every fortnight, not enough to satiate the longing, just enough to crave for more.

13 comments:

vinayvasan said...

Nice post as usual...

But then have you wondered, if things were wonderful all the time, may be that would also become mundane...

Another thought, life is worth living for those few beautiful moments amidst all the drudgery....

vinayvasan said...

Psst.. Wats with the self inflicted loneliness?

Kavity said...

@Vinay: Thanks! Yes, that is what I have allued to finally saying that if such moments were to continue, they would not be serendipitious anymore.
'Self-inflicted loneliness' - am a little bonkers, didn't you know :D

Madhurjya (Banjo) said...

lonely in a crowd I see :)

amit said...

When I embrace eternity and lose myself...the world thinks I have lost it...!
I cannot help coming back, for my roots run deep,
but those fleeting moments of stillness remain...
I never run fast enough to miss a rainbow...
or is it a stroke of the brush that my mind wields..!
Among thorns does the rose flourish
and so does the surreal flow from reality...

Kavity said...

@Banjo: Absolutely!

@Amit: "my roots run deep" - Beautiful :)

amit said...

:-)

மணிகண்டன் (Manikandan K S) said...

Good post..enjoyed reading it as usual :)

Epping Electrical said...

Have you read or watched "The Hours".. there was a line there saying "I remember one morning getting up at dawn, there was such a sense of possibility. You know, that feeling? And I remember thinking to myself this is the beginning of happiness. This is where it starts. And of course there will always be more. It never occurred to me it wasn't the beginning. It was happiness. It was the moment. Right then".. This post reminded me of that - it's one my favourite books/movies..

That said - I think am getting too old or something.. I just find every moment happy these days, though I clearly remember feeling what you've written of... "shots of chocolate".. mmm I like that!! :)

Kavity said...

@Mani: Thanks :)

@GodM: No, have not read it / seen it before. Sounds like an interesting one. Should try.
By the way, it is such a nice thing to know that you are finding very moment happy. Keep it up :)Hearing that, I want to age faster, the perks seem to be irresistible :P

Kirthana said...

"That is why fate doles it out in small doses, like single shots of chocolate every fortnight"- I like the thought... It is so true...

Deepa said...

good one...

Kavity said...

@Jo: :) Yeah it is..
@Deepa: Thanks!